Have you ever been in a situation where you are walking through something you simply cannot talk about with everyone?

I have had a delay in blogging for a while as I have tried to think through how to place into words topics we are not allowed to publicly speak about. A few years back I felt morally obligated to share with staff and administration information in order to protect children in my home and an organization I worked with.

Sometimes standing up for what is right produces the results we hope for, and sometimes it does not. We are not always at liberty to publicly share everything, and sometimes those concerns we hold in private are hard to carry.

I wish I could say that situation resolved itself in a way that satisfied my desire to protect children and fully believe in the trustworthiness of people and organizations. Sadly, it has not ended that way. I have never felt less confidence in some of the institutions I have always hoped acted with basic integrity and goodness in my life. Yet, I am still moving forward, doing what I believe is right and fighting on behalf of those who are most vulnerable in all the ways I have at my disposal, trying to trust God with the people and situations that are still messy and unresolved.

My love for others this season has looked more like privately trying to ask people to deal with this situation appropriately, and not always finding people able or willing to help as they should. I have come face to face with a lot of deficiencies and inadequacies with systems, organizations and people I have always trusted to be basically reliable, and that is hard. I continue trusting God, praying, and doing what I can. Sometimes, that is all we can do.